Over the last few months I have written this post countless times in my head. I’ve gotten discouraged and erased all the words from the post in my mind. I’ve had moments of inspiration when I’ve sat down and through tears written out words that make me feel incredibly vulnerable. I’ve had moments of complete and utter panic because I am not sure what people will say or think of my decision.
As a little girl I dreamed about two things…becoming a teacher and becoming a mom. On October 31, 2005 I walked into a classroom in Philadelphia and made the first dream come true. It was hands down one of the most difficult things I’ve ever done. And something I am incredibly proud of accomplishing. There were tears. There were days when I wanted to throw my hands in the air and quit. There was complete and utter joy and I learned that regardless of where I am in life, I am wired to have some component of teaching be a part of my life.
If you had asked ten-year old Julie how my second dream was going to come true I would have shared this sequence of events with you…
- Meet Mr. Wonderful in college
- Get married between the ages of 22 and 25
- Have 3 or 4 babies between the ages of 27 and 35
Clearly, reality has not matched my well thought out plans! I have struggled with what comes next when your plans don’t match reality, so I made a commitment in 2014 to live intentionally and figure out what’s next. And as I sought to live life intentionally, my life has been turned upside down and inside out. I read books about living on the edge of yikes (wise words from Bob Goff), creating a life filled with big moments, and walking in faith (What Happens When Women Walk in Faith). And after months of prayer, thinking, processing and seeking out wisdom from people close to me, I have realized what God has in store for me next.
So what does that mean?
In simplest terms, it means that I will first become licensed to do foster care and then licensed to adopt. Once I am licensed, I will receive a foster-care placement where the intent is to adopt.
In a little more detail it means that…
-I’ve already spent 30+ hours in parenting training and will be going through another 30+ hours in the next few months
-I don’t know exactly when I will receive a placement…it could be only a few months after I am licensed and it could be a couple of years
-I don’t know the details of the child(ren) I will receive as a placement. During the process I provide details on the age, gender, etc of my preference but I won’t know until I receive a phone call from my social worker
I know that this is not going to be an easy journey and yet I am very confident that this is what God has next for me in life and I would encourage you to reflect on what living big means for you.
And if you are an adoptive or foster parent (or any kind of parent!) feel free to comment below or get in touch and share your parenting experiences, tips, and advice!